Why are you cribbing about your life, if you believe in god; HE must be driving your life correctly.
Path of so many things are there in the world to enjoy divine peace. It is not the ultimate goal but the necessity of life. Just like food, which you need to survive, peace and love are the basic necessities for a human to be healthy. But all these are transported to heavenly things. For a kid – you need to make him unhappy else he is always happy; but for an adult – you need to make him happy else he is always unhappy. Anything you are deprived of will slowly rise to heaven. Make sure you don’t make yourself incapable of cherishing the basic necessities of life. Stop believing the so called gods/ demi-gods/ sadhus/ pandits. Believe in yourself. If you believe in god, then he must be driving your life correctly. Then why are you cribbing about your life.